Anonymous said: you are the only columbiner that admits having feelings for the killers and you're not using the 'we are only interested and curios' card. Why you think is that?
wow this is just hard to explain. I found out about Columbine the same day that happened. I was 17. In 98 i did community service for taking a gun to school. The whole story seemed closer to me than to anyone else like i could have been them you know? I was so full of rage, i hated people. When i read Eric’s journal i realize i had so much in common whit him, not only the music or that i always wore black clothes. I found myself agreeing with him in almost everything. I believe that because of my age, i can take hatred better. I don’t need to cover my preferences cause i’m not sorry for them. I’ve never said a single word about the victims and when i think about the shooting i always think that what the boys did was ‘illegal’ instead of ‘wrong’. I don’t label things in ‘good’ or ‘bad’.
If the other girls want to say they are only interested and nothing else, well is their right. I won’t dig deeper in that regard. Is just not my businesS.
I have strong convictions and i always tend to act in a way that respects my convictions. You can’t emotional withdraw because you don’t agree someone’s actions. If you do, then your love wasn’t inconditional. It was not bullet proof.
A long time ago i fell in love with Eric Harris. I knew what i was doing when i fell in love with him, i know there will be haters, but i believe that love must conquer everything, hatred, rejection. Everything.
If i love someone, i’ll say it, i’m not afraid of the consequences.
yes exactly thank you